In thinking about the choice, it is completely up to you. Driven to make the choice and came to a place where there seemed to be no choice for you. You consider the consequences and ramifications of your actions. In some sense they seem logical in your mind, but not logical in the sense of normal. Logic becomes bent like light through glass and the refractions of output move forward. We all have a tough time living with our consequences. We all have a tough time making difficult choices. There are those choices which cannot be reversed. There is sometimes no turning back from such a choice. Can you handle the consequences and explaining yourself for the rest of time? Can you live with not making a choice to change what is happening? No one knows what drives us to make a choice. Some of us have no other option but to act while others had a choice to act in other ways.
Call on God, but row away from the rocks. – Proverb